A Fallen Heart....

Oh.....

I am depressed lately.....

I miss summer.....

I miss A.S. and A.C.

A.S. will help me through so much, if she ever has a break

from school or work.... I'm so sad.

I want C. to come home....

I need a webcam so I can talk to C. on skype...

A (Not) Warm Sunday Afternoon....

Yesterday at contest, I did Great!!

I got one II, and three I's! I'm so

happy!

Today, A.S. and A.C. are coming over,

and they might have dinner with us.

I finished the Grateful Dead article for

my school's newspaper...

It's been a good weekend. :)

La Biblioteca y mi Escuela

Today I went to our local library. There, I typed

part of some articles that I need to finish for our

school's newspaper. I'm doing some history

on two bands. I'm also covering the orchestra contest, 

like the ratings and stuff.

Contest is tomorrow....

I hope I get good Ratings....

I (kinda) know that I'm going to get good ratings....

I See The Rain.... Or Is It Snow?

UGHH! The snow is Back!!

But on the bright side, I got accepted for world history!

I'm happy about that!

Tonight is the recital that's practice for contest.

I hope T. doesn't screw up again when he counts off... grr....

I usually count off, but he's first chair, so he has to for contest,

and he's bad with an audience....

Well, we will (hopefully) do well....

Ugh! Teachers Suck!

Today I was rejected for honors biology for next year! 

So, now I have to get some form filled out by my parents,

so I can still be in the class. I also want to take honors world-history,

and chinese. All so I can get in to NYU. 

Highschool will be (hopefully) fun.

Orchestra contest is Saturday...

I (really) hope I get good ratings....

Oh, the Joys of School...

So, today, my school had an assembly for our scedules next year.

At the beginning, it wasn't too bad...

But, then there were only four semester slots for extra curriculars!

And, I have to do orchestra, and a language. So now, those are the only two I can do. :'

I wanted to do Clothing Design.... but now I can't. 

But, the cool thing about language is freshmen can take chinese. :)!!

So, my friend C. was like, "Dude, cool. I'm doin' that too!".

And I was like, "Whatev."

But, I'll like next year.... I hope.....

Tip Toing Out

On Friday, we had a diversity "education". So, normal, black is cool, so is gay, straight, trans, 

whatever. 

So, when the class ended early, everyone talked. So, D. came up to me, 

put her hands on my shoulders, 

and asked if I was gay. 

I said no, but my heart raced.

When the class was let out,. I went to my locker, and texted D., "dont tell anyone, but, i lied."

She texted Back: I swear I wont tell anyone!

So, I have entrusted her with a huge burden.

I hope she doesn't tell, or I'd be ruined for the moment.

I don't care that I'm gay, I just hate being the extreme center of attention.

I have told her, and A.S.

I told A.S. in a cofee shop, and, she asked me if I was gay, and I said Yes.

I want people to know, But it's just hard to say that you are gay.