Well...

I made a new blog. In The Life it is. P:

I prolly won't be making many more posts..... P:

If you cant understand this you is lucky! (google translate)

我刚刚回来，从游泳赛。我们没有做好的。这些女孩队与90至90。这些家伙输了一样，一亿元。唉！ （难过的表情）嗯，没有什么别的变化。游泳，学校，游泳，家庭作业，睡眠，重复。不好玩。有一个圣诞晚会在当地的比萨店。我们交换礼物那里。 （笑脸）喵。末端。

Equality U

I'm watching a movie on LOGO, Equality U, it is.

It's where this tour bus of LGBTs are going around to

anti-LGBT campuses to try and educate, and get people

to see that homosexuality is okay.

At one college, students are yelling in protest,

"Shame on you! Shame on you!"

It's terrible!

Students are expelled from these schools!

Mormons teach their children that homosexuality is

wrong, and it is sinful, and they shouldn't be alive

if they're gay.

It's terrible, and it shouldn't be this way.

Many gay Mormons kill themselves.

It's more wrong to disrespect these people, and make

them feel like they shouldn't be alive. I do not believe in God,

but if 'he' was real, I don't think he'd like these

people trying to make others feel like, shit.

I hope I was clear.

End.

Halloween Hurt! *Lolz*

Hah. :)

Haloween hurt my feet! :D

I went trick or treating with N. and G. :)

It hurt my feetsie. I wore heels all friday night.

And I couldn't wear them last night. Ouchies.

My ankles still hurt.

L.'s party was really fun!

M. and I are fine :)

K., is being a cunt face and we're never gonna

be friends again.

:)

Good.

P:

Tuesday I have no school! :D

My parents are going on Vacation thursday to tuesday, so I'm staying at my grandparent's.

Swim Team starts friday, fun fun fun.

Bye!

I'd Die for What Angel Had.....

HOLY FUCK I'M TIRED OF ALL OF THIS SHIT!

GEEZ!

M. scared Me, N., and A. today by getting completely enraged,

and threatening to kill himself.

Then, once he calmed down. He called me.

And this was all over me changing and not having the same friends

as last year, and not living up to everyone's standard that

I need to be fucking jolly all the fucking time.

I'M SORRY THAT I CAN'T BE PERFECT FOR FUCKING EVERYONE!

So, now my parents are all involved, because while after I heard M.,

wanted to commit suicide, While I was sobbing my brains out,

I told one of my friends to call my mom (she's a psyciatric social worker).

So, she got involved.

And, I guess she's gonna come home and try to make me live up to everyone's

standards.

I cried the most today than I have in a long time.

I Am tired of all of this.

High school already sucks.

End.

A few things on me..... :)

Enjoy! :)

I hate AC/DC.

I'm a democrat.... Obviously.

I don't get how straight people are attracted to the opposite sex.... O.o

I <3>

I'm addicted to facebook.

And Pandora.

And Breaktheillusion.com

and MLIA.....

I love saying, "I Know right!"

I eat way too much... and it shows....

I love overusing periods.......... (see?)

I love the Pink bodymist scent... you know, it's like, fruit and sugar.... :DD

I also hate Journey.

I talk about being gay, gay culture, and gay subject way too much, and it annoys my friends... (SORRY!)

I love coffee and other coffee like beverages.

I spend too much money at my local coffee shop..... :-/

I LOVE FOOD!

I'm on facebook TOO MUCH!

I love my blog.... :)

I can't think of anything else right now....

That's all for now!

Homecoming Dance... TOMORROW!! :D

Hahahahahahaha, I'm goning to be such a, dare I say it?, a fag at homecoming!

:D In a good way.

I'm going with C. She's nice.... and she knows, so It won't be akward.... :)

I'm wearing Black dress pants, shoes and socks, and a black sweater vest with

that diamond pint stuff. :) I forrggeeettt the name..... Im wearing a white dress shirt, and a nice

black tie.

I'm so excited!

Today was the homecoming football game. RAINY AND COLD!

But fun! :)

I left a little before halftime because I was cold.

After I left, I went to my local cafe... Got a latte, and headed home.

*ugh* Heard my parents, you know....

So, I watched I Love Lucy, my new favorite show... :)

Then, after they were done... *throws up in my mouth*

I talked with them a little bit. then I took a bath. A warm relaxing bath!

Then, sitting in front of the living room fire with my sleeping dad, and my talkative mother.

Awesome Night!! :D

End.

:^-|

I Love Chamomile....

I truly love Chamomile tea. <3

It is the most calming sensation to have the warmth fill my core.

I also enjoy listening to my local NPR station. There are stories about

mishaps with technology, and fathers and their sons. It's quite amusing.

I think this is the best way to spend my Friday nights. No drama, and almost

total peace. :-)

OH! The joys of High School.....

Well, Argh!

Okay... so, my ex-friend K. Told like, ten people that I'm gay!

WTF is with her!?!

And then, someone she told, A., told like, five people. And I guess she talks

about me at lunch, cuz she's in a different lunch period....

D:<

WHAT A BITCH!

And I guess she called one of my friends, N., or Tits, as we call her, :) , with *67,

and said something along the lines of, I'M GONNA KILL YOU WITH A GUN!

And now K. is bitching about how she might have to go to juvie if N.'s parents press

charges!

So, I hope they do something!

AND YOU KNOW WHAT REALLY PISSES ME OFF!?!?!

MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I actually feel a little bit bad for her!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT IS WITH ME!?!?!?!

In other news, there was a meeting for swim team. Fun, NOT!

Lol....

:)

End.

I Have Too Much Fun With My Tongue....

It really is true, I do have too much with my tongue....

Ha...

:)

My UK is over with his Girlfriend E. I don't like her.

She always has a look of judgement in her eyes. And

she's pretentious. Whatev.

I aslo noticed how much of a d-bag my UK is.

He calls Arabs "diaper heads," he thinks women

should be men's slaves, and I'm pretty sure he hates

homos.... Whatever....

:-/

Bye!

An Internal Conflict......

Ugghh!

For Honors World History, We have an assignment

where we have to form opinions on current events.

Sounded easy.

Then, I saw like, two or three of the topics had to deal

with homosexuality... Like marriage, and hate crimes, stuff

like that....

I don't know how to handle it! (We also have to discuss this in class)

Whe have to say why we have these opinions..

So, I don't know how I would say why I have such a passion

for the subjects without seeming really gay!

I hope I'm explaining this all well..... (I'm shaking for some reason.)

I don't know.... This is so hard.....

mmmm....

bleh.

AHG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so pissed off!!!! !!! ! ! ! !

AGH!

I just learned that someone who I came out to is a stupid bitch!

I learned from a very good friend that she thinks it's disgusting,

and against god!

I am sorry, my good friend if you are reading this,

but Christianity really pisses me off sometimes!!!!

ARGH!

I thought she would be fine with it, that she wouldn't be judgemental!

Whatever.

OMFG!!!!

I just got back from a family reunion.

So, there's this guy (my grandma's stepsister's daughter's son's/ son's kid)

Before, he was hot. Now he's SUPER MEGA HOT! lol.

And, good news for me! He wears his "diamond" stud on the right

ear! The Gay ear!!!!!! If he knows the rule, HE'S GAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND SUPER HOT!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDD

I know I'm a freak... lol.

Just thought I'd Share that with y'all.

Byes!

My first Talky Blog!

Ha, I'm not showing my face yet!

lol....

I say umm a lot in this video (no picture, cuz i put my thumb over the camera!)

:)

Davey Wavey!!

I love Davey Wavey!

Ha, I know I'm so lame, but he's

awesome! I'm posting a link to his site,

and he's on Youtube. :)

He's hot too! And he hates wearing shirts...

:DDD

Here We Go Loop-Di-Loo...

Oh boy, do I hate Saturday nights like this.

Boring. I hate not having texting because no one wants

to talk using their voice, so it's hard to make plans. And,

it takes too long without texting. Whatever.

I'll still be drooling over the unknown named swimmer

come Monday.

I got a new suit.....

I wish there were openly gay people in my life that I wasn't

related to....

:(

I've Fallen Yet Again...

Agh!!

Okay, I've been on a swim team since the beginning

of summer...

It tortures me, not only because I have to wake up

at 5:30 AM, but there's a really hot guy on the team!

- bleached hair (doesn't look bad) awesome body, nice ass...

umm... perfect legs, and is an awesome swimmer-

He's also at least a year and a half older than me... :(

Why do all the straight guys in my world have to be hot!?!

I'll try to survive....

I Saw Jesus.... And he Said Piss Off, I Don't Wanna Talk....

Apparently he was sad.... haha, I don't know what that was about.

My parents think I'm too young to know if I'm gay.... which is B.S.

Cousin P. had his First Holy Communion today... Yay for him.

I've gone over my texting. So if I get my phone taken away, oh well. 

Well, Jesus is still sad...... idk

A Weekend Full of Good Food and Movies......

My Mom and I saw two movies this weekend, and we also ate out twice,

which never happens. We saw Earth and The Soloist. We ate at a health/

mediterranean place and Chilis. They were both good. Now, Both my parents know

that I'm gay, my sister, my two aunts, and possibly U.G........... 

I'm celebrating my birthday today, even though it's not till Thursday......

All I asked for was music..... :P

Well..... If you want to destroy my sweater.......

Alternatives.....

My school went to a "learning center" that teaches mechanics and like, dental assisting.... things like that.

We also went to a local community college. BORING!

But, D. was sad, and happy today.... I got lots of hugs!

Sean Penn...

Wow, I just watched MILK again, and I forgot how cute

Sean Penn is. Ha. Most of the cast is cute. Ha.

Sucks Already.....

Easter sucks already.....

When my family was walking home from church

my brother and my dad started screaming at each other 

because some pregnant lady was standing in the aisle

and my brother didn't get up to offer his seat.

So, now I'm pissed off!

If You Wear Red Tonight..........

Oh......

I Haven't written in a while.

Well, for all of the (zero) readers, I have told my parents, and 

I don't know if I have written that I told C.

Well, D. still loves me.... ha.....

My life has been GREAT!!!

The (un)Believer

My parents are making me get confirmed, even though I am Atheist.

I feel that they cannot repect this. I know  I am going to 

regret getting confirmed. C. is my sponsor, and she said she would 

tell my parents that I shouldn't get it. I have also told C. that I am gay.

I wrote her a letter. She called me, and she would always love me,

and be there.

I am content.

Baby I'm Down (Down on the Ground)...

ARGHH!!!

I hate my family!

My dad got all whiney and bitchy because I

broke the shit-skooper.

AH!

And they're trying to change me.

They're trying to get me to lose weight,

but, my fat is part of my personality...

Without it, I'd just be really creepy....

Another Day.... Another.... Whatever

Penny wars with my school's 1st Period classes.

My class is in the lead.

Saturday I'm gonna hang out with A.S. and A.C.

Thursday night, me, C.P, and abuncha other people are 

gonna go to Cici's.

D. loves me more than ever...

Ingnoring my Beleifs......

My parents are ignoring that I'm atheist. It bothers me.

They expext me to go to church, and to follow all the Catholic stuff,

even though I don't beleive in any of it...

It makes me angry. Why can't they accept my beleifs?

This is why I don't tell them I'm gay. Either they'll think nothing of

it, or try to fix me up with a girl, or tell everyone around them.

That's why I want to tell almost everyone, before I tell them.

So, there'd be virtually no one to tell that didn't know.

A Fallen Heart....

Oh.....

I am depressed lately.....

I miss summer.....

I miss A.S. and A.C.

A.S. will help me through so much, if she ever has a break

from school or work.... I'm so sad.

I want C. to come home....

I need a webcam so I can talk to C. on skype...

A (Not) Warm Sunday Afternoon....

Yesterday at contest, I did Great!!

I got one II, and three I's! I'm so

happy!

Today, A.S. and A.C. are coming over,

and they might have dinner with us.

I finished the Grateful Dead article for

my school's newspaper...

It's been a good weekend. :)

La Biblioteca y mi Escuela

Today I went to our local library. There, I typed

part of some articles that I need to finish for our

school's newspaper. I'm doing some history

on two bands. I'm also covering the orchestra contest, 

like the ratings and stuff.

Contest is tomorrow....

I hope I get good Ratings....

I (kinda) know that I'm going to get good ratings....

I See The Rain.... Or Is It Snow?

UGHH! The snow is Back!!

But on the bright side, I got accepted for world history!

I'm happy about that!

Tonight is the recital that's practice for contest.

I hope T. doesn't screw up again when he counts off... grr....

I usually count off, but he's first chair, so he has to for contest,

and he's bad with an audience....

Well, we will (hopefully) do well....

Ugh! Teachers Suck!

Today I was rejected for honors biology for next year! 

So, now I have to get some form filled out by my parents,

so I can still be in the class. I also want to take honors world-history,

and chinese. All so I can get in to NYU. 

Highschool will be (hopefully) fun.

Orchestra contest is Saturday...

I (really) hope I get good ratings....

Oh, the Joys of School...

So, today, my school had an assembly for our scedules next year.

At the beginning, it wasn't too bad...

But, then there were only four semester slots for extra curriculars!

And, I have to do orchestra, and a language. So now, those are the only two I can do. :'

I wanted to do Clothing Design.... but now I can't. 

But, the cool thing about language is freshmen can take chinese. :)!!

So, my friend C. was like, "Dude, cool. I'm doin' that too!".

And I was like, "Whatev."

But, I'll like next year.... I hope.....

Tip Toing Out

On Friday, we had a diversity "education". So, normal, black is cool, so is gay, straight, trans, 

whatever. 

So, when the class ended early, everyone talked. So, D. came up to me, 

put her hands on my shoulders, 

and asked if I was gay. 

I said no, but my heart raced.

When the class was let out,. I went to my locker, and texted D., "dont tell anyone, but, i lied."

She texted Back: I swear I wont tell anyone!

So, I have entrusted her with a huge burden.

I hope she doesn't tell, or I'd be ruined for the moment.

I don't care that I'm gay, I just hate being the extreme center of attention.

I have told her, and A.S.

I told A.S. in a cofee shop, and, she asked me if I was gay, and I said Yes.

I want people to know, But it's just hard to say that you are gay.